I'm still getting settled in at the Gomes Ranch, but I'm happy to report that the California sunshine is reinvigorating this California girl! The last few days have been a bit of a whirlwind, so here's a summary:
We returned to KSC to have the bag removed from her port, which was a quick and painless procedure.
We had a lovely, quiet Saturday. Our only venture was out to KSC for a quick tuturial on how to administer her daily shot of Neupogen, which is designed to stimulate white blood cells in her bone marrow. Along with the cancer cells, the chemo will have a strong effect on her white blood cells - little disease fighting soldier cells - which only have a life cycle of 7-10 days.
So, once a day for 6 days, I'll be poking mama in the tummy with her daily dose. Even though we were both a little intimidated by the first shot (she's not such a big fan of needles) it was easy and painless.
Then, since Mom had been craving pizza, we stopped by Woodside Bakery for some fresh pizza dough and fixed up our own all-natural margarita pizza. It hit the spot!
Mom has experienced some mild congestion over the past week, which seemed to culminate in a headache this morning. So, we called to the Advice Line and they set up an appointment earlier this afternoon to have her checked at the KSC clinic. We were seen quickly and given good news that her lungs are clear, she has no fever, and is most likely experience mild congestion - no infection. So, with a little nasal inhaler and some OTC Allegra, we were back home. Already she's feeling much better. Better safe than sorry!
I hope this gives you all a better picture of where we are. We're still navigating this new routine. Once we have our camp set up, we'll be able to reach out more.
Even though we've come pretty far, we've only been at this fight for less than a month. Thank you again to all of you who have helped us rally. Reaching out to you and being available to your need to keep close to this beautiful woman is forefront on my heart. As we move forward, please know that we want all of you with us.
As for me...
I had a rather rough evening on Friday. The overwhelming truth of it all is much more acute now that I'm here. The old calming methods I carry in my bag of self-care tricks aren't quite up to snuff anymore. I feel fit to burst at times. Spending some time in the hot tub, breathing, stretching and singing have been truly rewarding.
It seems a miracle to me that we exhale a fatally poisonous gas, Carbon Dioxide, which the Earth receives and converts into the Oxygen we need to live. Similarly, as I release the toxic angst of this painful time and entrust it to the world around me, I can be still in the hope that what I release may return to me a nourishing and healing sustenance. Though release feels less intuitive than resistance as I face the battle ahead, it is only when I let go that I feel truly at peace.