Friday, April 13, 2012

Day 80


It is so easy to lose hope. It takes courage not to let the grief of the loss that has not yet come steal the hope of what still can be. There is a dark, warm and inviting room that beckons the tormented to come and sit and forget; to close our eyes to the gnawing pain of a loved one in harm's way.

But, when we hole up too soon, we also close our eyes to the beauty, the wonder that it is before us. Hope opens your eyes. Yes. We see suffering more clearly. We also see miracles: the power of love when family comes together.

I ask you to hold tight to hope with me. Your hope gives my hope strength.

Mom's condition has progressed with great speed. She is returning home today from a brief hospital visit after her digestive system was not able to process food due to the spread of the cancer to her intestinal area, her stomach and her lungs. After consulting with the doctor's and talking with mom, we have decided to bring her home with hospice care.

I know many of you want to know how to help and the only thing I know to tell you is:

Do not lose hope. Our family may reach out to you for some practical needs and if you have anything you'd like to share or bring, you are welcome. Joshua came home last night and I know he'll need your support now too. We all do.

Thank you for joining us on this journey and know, the journey is not over...


  1. Being the mother of your husband who one of your friends labeled as a hope whore; I am holding tight with you. As you so eloquently put, miracles small and large appear through the love. I wish I could be there to hold you when you need to be held and you Denise. I LOVE YOUR HUGS!!! My favorite quote: The only real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes.
    Marcel Proust
    We are all developing new eyes now. Love Love Love

  2. Hope and Faith! thats what i'll keep and hold tightly too... I know in my heart and trust in the LORD that a huge Miracle is coming. Keep your faith he shows up at 11:59:59.

  3. We will be down Sunday Jess. Hugs to you all.


  4. May God grant you His peace my Earth Angels. I love you so much, my extended family in this life. And, right Jessica, the journey is far from over. The love that Denise created in your home and family, I know is just beaming through your windows, over Woodside and beyond to Jesus, and our Heavenly Father. Hope, Faith, and Love are the strongholds there, and the power of that love WILL persevere. Love, hugs and more hugs are coming at you, I pray you feel them.
    Love Always, Auntie Darla